Swayze in Audiobook: “I knew I had received a death sentence.”

In a very searing and revealing audiobook of his memoirs releasing soon, where he narrates along with his wife, he basically admits he knew he was dead when he heard “pancreatic cancer”.

He also admitted being very angry and bitter after hearing the diagnosis, realizing his time was short. “Why me?” he asked many times, feeling like he “wasn’t ready to go yet”.

The Dirty Dancing star died a few weeks ago now after a year long battle with cancer. He completed the A&E series The Beast as his last hurrah, often struggling to finish scenes and being in a lot of pain according to the producers.

More from the book:

“Now, a lot of things go through your head when you get a death sentence handed to you, starting with: ‘Why me?’ It’s hard not to sink into bitterness … For me, that initial shock quickly turned into self-criticism and blame.”

The audiobook comes out Tuesday, and it sounds like a pretty intense read/listen. Rest in peace, Patrick.